  So, this morning, in a moment of clarity, I asked Kurt to phone the Family for an update as to my job status. I lost it. I lost my job, the job has been misplaced, the job is no longer my concern. There is an overwhelming sense of being penalized for doing the right thing, however, I can see from their viewpoint how I must've been a bad bet. Retrospectively, I believe they had no intentions of keeping me on, why else interview others after my insurance problem had beeen solved? Another reason I can't really blame them is that I really was a bad bet. I was planning on taking my leave of them as soon as greener pastures materialised in the form of a job in town, or better pay, or both. I guess the thing is, I wasn't planning on leaving the job on their terms; I had planned to leave on mine.
There are a few postings on job bank that look tasty - a long time to hear back, but tasty nonetheless. After I am healed, and my voice returns, I'm going to drop off resumes at resturants here, compose killer cover letters for other non-food-service jobs, and keep all of my digits crossed. To be honest, though, I feel completely demoralised. There seems to be a somewhat unending succession of bad luck in the job market thing, and it's beginning to occur to me that it ISN'T bad luck, but either that A) I suck, or that B) I suck.
Or perhaps C) The entire world sucks, and I am its bitch. Basically, for the last year or so, I've been trying to get myself a little niche in the world of work. I quit most of my endeavors, for what I thought were reasonable and solidly good reasons. Could it be that they weren't? It could be the case that I am deficient in work ethic, or I'm too picky, or something. Or it could all seem that way because I have this tendancy to see events in the worst possible lighting.
Today's job posting goes thusly: Title: Project administration officer (Coordinator) Terms of Employment: Temporary, Full Time Salary: $10.00 Hourly for 32.5 hours per week Anticipated Start Date: As soon as possible Location: Another Commute of thirty minutes or so for me Other Information: TERM: 42 weeks. Ability to provide administrative support for facilitators & program manager. Excellent keyboard skills & computer skills including MSOffice & database. Organizational & communication skills. Detail oriented. Ability to work in a fast paced, constantly changing environment.
Interpersonal skills. An understanding of Priority/At Risk Youth. Employer:Centre for Small Business & Entrepreneurship How to Apply: By Fax: By E-mail: Other: Deadline: March 21, 2003 Any ideas with the cover letter and suchlike would be greatly apperciated; I'll be bashing away at that for the part of the day I'm not asleep trying to purge myself of the Wold's Stickiest Illness. That's it for now, it's now naptime for the sick. No, I haven't seen a doctor. Either it's viral, and they can't do anything, or I'll be contributing to the world's supervirus problem with antibiotics. 
