  And so i got this e-mail today from zee Boss: Robyn It has been 11 days since you have been back and have yet to return any calls of mine. I'm sorry but I think its time to move on and find someone else that wants the job that will be able to sell everyday. I have called you at least 7 times in the new year and have not heard from you at all. I was a patient as possible and tried in everyway to help you along, I hope that you will find something that will be better for you. Boss Man Ok...had i got this a week ago, or for that matter, yesterday, I would have been devestated. (If it had have been the last few days, I probably would yammied all over the keyboard. ) I mean, it's not snotty, but i definitely felt like i threw it all away. Not now. I feel like i made the right choice, underlined by the feeling of whoo i'm free...Freeeeeeeeeee..free to run down to the Baptist church the next town over and explain to them thatI would love to be a an adminstrative assistant to the Family Resource center.
(I really would! ) Of course, my dear Avid Reader, you may be thinking I'm off my gourd. Not so. The bills are taken care of till about Feburary. So, i have time. I hope it's enough time. I am aware it was perhaps idiotic to leave one job without having another one to run to, but it was to the point where i could not physically go to work.
Nausea, wanting to drive the car off something or into something, a plethora of ill feelings and fears, not to mention my penchant for focusing on the negative; all of these things aided me in that helpless horrid feeling of my sanity unraveling. And, I feel I'm just putting my trust out There, and that makes me feel ok. Weird, right? I did a stupid thing, and I feel ok, becuase I'm trusting that I can find a better job, that i can do better then selling dishes. And I can do it before the safety net goes out. So, send mojo and happy thoughts my way. 
