  So, i got urlLink this in my e-mail today. For those of you who don't want to get all linky, here's the gist. Antidepressants are causing the symptoms that they're supposed to help control. Among these are: Prozac/Fluoxetine - What I'm on now Zoloft -been on it Paxil - Been on it:suicide attempt 1 Luvox - suicide attempt #3 Celexa - been there Lexapro Wellbutrin Effexor - Suicide attempt #2 Serzone Remeron I have noticed that a lot of anti-robyn behaviour occurs if there's any changes in meds.
Right, so I'm thinking, get off the drugs (but they seem to be keeping me on the level. ) Also, were those suicide attempts because i was mentally unsound because of my condition, or my treatment? Looking back into old journals tells me that I never tried to kill myself until i was 4 months into paxil. Is it a coincidence, or what? Is there an action that needs to be taken? On the plus side, instead of panic, I'm experiencing anger. Anyways. Been getting largely heroic amounts of sleep. It's pretty nice, but I seem to be moving back into the land of the undead. Work is going nicely, I'm getting shit done, and i haven't gotten any batches back. (Yes! I'm a good coder!
) I must say that this job is suited to me rather nicely. It excercise my brain in weirdish ways, and i've got that sense of accomplishment thing happening. I still want to go back to school, but I can definitely see me doing this for a long time. If you have quicktime, and like the creepy, you have to see this. It's a mini-movie entitled urlLink The Cat With Hands . Be warned, though, it's damn creepy (Just ask Granger - sorry again! ) I'm scrounging around in my head to find any sort of interesting tidbits, and I got nothing. All I've been doing is working, doing homeish thing and nursing my isolationism to a largish sized loathing of the general populace. The last gross bits of snotty ungoodness are fading away, and Kurt's symptoms are at the pinnacle of disgusting.
We went through more toilet paper that can be easily conceived. The hand-me-down compy is still not working, and I'm almost beyond caring. I do know of a certain school that's selling these laptops for 650 at the end of the year, so it's a choice between saving up for that, or fixing the tower, buying a new monitor, etc. A monitor would be cheaper, but I'm much more familar with the laptop, it has much more space, and laptops are something I'm more accustomed to than a pc. Thoughts, anyone? I'm waiting for spring. 
