  Ye gods! Tried the sleeping pill, and woke up around 3pm. Had an unfortunate amount of 'hangover time' however, and couldn't speak or have functional fine motor control for about three hours. Will NOT be taking them unless I happen to have three hours upon awakening to do my best impression of a vegetable undisturbed.
Other than that, the pill worked great. Not sure yet as to how it relates to the excessive nervousness yet. Didn't take one tonight, which, well, you know, explains why I'm tapping away at ten after five. I work with Poppa tomorrow evening, so the three hours of being a legume would open me up to ridicule and hollering from said Poppa. Besides, it didn't even occur to me to take it till three am, so, one's gotta ask. what's the point?
Thinking about changing the phone number. Is that cheating? See, now, there was this woman I babysat for. She had her number unlisted, and it could not be requistioned by anyone, including the government. I'm sick of paid assholes calling me, even after I explain in explicit terms what has happened, that I'm real sorry, but fuck off, it's your mistake, do your homework. I would like, very much, to be inaccessible to these people by telephone. Still this is the method that woman used, and she is a criminal. Am I being a deadbeat, etc? Or should I keep up the song and dance routine? We have quaretined Phoebe.
She is unimpressed. I still have visions of Fida, and of Cordy, and I can't let Phoebe outside anymore. It is entirely selfish; I believe given the choice she would rather have freedom and risk death. I am far too weak to give it to her. (Kurt too. ) But she's taken to meowing loudly, and pathetically, and she looks longingly to the outside, and all the dangers. Hopefully, when we get the kitten, she'll be too much in 'play' mode to notice. The Poo summed up nicely where him, Kurt, myself, and many others are at financially: "At best, I'm in a position where I don't have to worry about starving to death.
And that's cuz i ignore my debts and live a couple notches above absolute poverty. " That's about the extent of it. And Kurt's going to get further in debt before we can climb back out. My fortune favor the foolish, right? Ok, going to go grab that insommnia by the balls. Happy Birthday, Chad, you corporate pig. 
