  Dear God, I did it again. I really need to think before I do things. I need time apart from all of this, time apart. Maybe I should go to the ranch over New Year's. Perhaps I could get some perspective there, and figure myself out. I am so sorry for being the moron I've been, but I get caught up in things, and I act rashly. However, like I've said, no regrets. I am sorry if dire consequences arise, but things happen, and I wouldn't wish it any other way. All decisions lead to bigger and more heavy ones, and ones I made recently will lead to a great big and overweight one. I just need time apart. Time to think. -------------------------------------- My mom today on opening presents: "We're doing it my way because I said so; we need to drag this motha out. " I need bedtime before my brain explodes. God bless 
