  i have a dilemma. after a really long while, i've recently gotten back in touch with my old flame. let's call him D. he's been sending me these really sentimental "you're special" or "miss you" or "glad i have you" type of sms messages.
yesterday he asked me to check out his band's website and sign the guestbook. i found his pictures on the website and OHMYGAWD he's still as cute, maybe even cuter, than ever! haaaaaaaayyyy . i had this really hot sexy dream about him last night. i dreamt that i was in a dorm and he came over. at first we were talking and then we were flirting and then making out. after i got all hot and bothered, i leaned over to him and whispered "i want you". and then we got into this huge hot tub and i started singing dilemma (nelly/kelly). we did some heavy foreplay in the tub and then we got out and started looking for a bedroom. then my mom and dad suddenly was there so we had to sneak around and finally got into a safe room where nobody would find us.
it was all cozy and perfect. we were undressing each other and then sort of fell onto the bed when... i woke up. all sweaty like. WHEW! my sister thinks i'm stupid for even thinking about that guy still. she never liked him. she *loves* my boyfriend now. she feels like he's her real older brother (i'm the eldest, we don't have a kuya kase ) and he really does treat her like she's his own younger sister. he's very protective and caring. my boyfriend really is a great guy. but D is SO cute. i know D will always be my crush. i've had a crush on him since i was like 8 and now i'm in my 20's but when i see him i still feel like i did when i was 8... so maybe that's all there is to it.
a childish infatuation that won't die. i guess i could never really love him the way i love my boyfriend now. but be with him one night? OOOOOHHHH *slap* naughty girl... bad! bad! hahaha but really it's only in my head. i could never... EVER. 
