  * Sigh*  Long weekend,  kinda blew up in my face.  there is so much that happened.  but i will just stick to the.
 main stuff i guess Ryan -  23 year old he likes me.  a lot.  and he has been calling me and its been great and I have slowly been falling for him .  the problem is hes moving to Europe.  not to long from now.
 and if we did go out .  it wouldnt last long and it wouldnt work out long distance.  god i know that too well.  so he wants to call what we have quits .  which is cool.  one less guy to worry about.
 but it kinda bugs me cause i stayed up all night.  one night feeling something for him that i havnt felt for anyone in a long time.  keon.  we're dating now.  another facter to my liking ryan.  he took me out and he was nice and respectable.
 very horny lol.  and he treats me good.  when hes not busy.  * sigh*  i need to give him a chance another problem i have.
 i called dallas today .  hes been bugging me forever.  so we could hoop up or something .  and at school i called him.  and i told him.  well asked if tomorrow i can go over there.
 just for alittle while.  he wants to talk.  but i have to stay strong cause im still dating.  keon.  even though he hasnt called me.  in a long time.
 more then 6 days and i left a message .  but still no reply and i feel alone with him.  its like i dont have a bf cause hes so distant but when we are together it feels great * Sigh*  i dont want guy problems.  i just want to be loved.
 on another note jon and i have stopped talking once again.  i cant even remember the reasons why .  im so messed up.  not like anyone is helping either.  and its gets really annoying coming online when i need to do homework and have an average of .  6 people message me at one time.
sigh*  chaos.  i hate it.  i cant even stand on my own two feet.  i g2g now tho.  cause i have to get work done before 9 and ryan and i have to talk about the moving thing and i need to call keon.
 and relax some how before .  bed 
