  CURRENT MOOD: depressed... and it's not getting any better CURRENT SONG: some sad shit... CURRENT DRINK: should be a bottle of alcohol, but just water... *SIGH* I am bummed. Not just because I don't have my car anymore, but because I realized that I am SO not happy with my life. I didn't care that I hit the wall... well, I did, but more because of the fact that my car was ruined. I wasn't thankful that I was still alive. I just simply didn't care. And that scares me. Am I so materialistic that I care more about the well-being of an inanimate object (unless turned on and driven by me) than I am about my own welfare?
*shrug* I have no idea. That depresses me because I like to think I'm not so typical... I mean, I know I am, but in other ways, I'm not. And so I am bummed. I don't hate my life yet... and I'm certainly not at the point to ending it, but when it comes down to it, I am not happy. Period. My job... is a job. My friends... are my friends. My family... is my family. I don't have anyone close...
I think I keep a lot of people at an arm's length. I am an isolated island in the middle of the vast ocean, with no other land in sight. That's how I feel. And on that note, I will bid adieu. Maybe go drink some coke or something. Payce. 
