  If you could hire a prostitute, what fantasy would you have them fulfil? I just have to ask this question. Some folks get off on cops  those fabulous leather boots, the authority. Some like Japanese schoolgirls.
And well, what I like is plainly obvious to all. I want my teachers. An intensely erotic dream about Heather Hayton last night paired with a brief moment of unexpected (yet innocent) intimacy with Dawn tonight my thing for Kristen, a lust shes well aware of and still plays with me in letters. Shit, do I need to list the others? Ive only two hours until midnight. Can someone find me a call girl who can recite Donne to me, lecture me on the death of the author, and then submit to a good old fashioned ravishing by yours truly? Walk me through the demands of the Chiapas rebels as I give her head? Anyone? Anyone? Alas, Im left to my own imaginative longings.
Longings that propel me to attend class, to gravitate towards women who can ignite this passion for learning. For intellectual orgasms as well as the toe-curling type. I had to answer the question tonight: Are you queer? I think the fact that I want to fuck those in power positions like I do qualifies me as such. To embrace the challenge and take the reigns, push the issue yet submit to pleasing these women, submitting instead of what the initiation implies.
But I couldnt write as much in a public posting to the class listserv. Nor did I touch on the bondage bits. I had a lot to say for the queer class discussions, however filtered for public consumption. (I may wish I filtered the above raw admissions) We were to make a response of half a page to the 20+ page reading, then respond to two of our classmates. So I wrote a three page response. Responded to two people with a page+ for each. And then submitted 3 more posts to the general discussion part that does count for anything but acts as a place for me to add to the discussion.
No one else is as intense as I am, of course. I plan to submit more tonight. As I finish this wine (so good, btw!). and before I take all my knock-out drugs. Its all about writing. Reading, writing, and lusting to fuck my professors. A point of distinction that some find strange/troubling: to fuck them, not be fucked. Anyway Gnight. 
