  Left alone in this giant house. The boys are down at the guest house playing airsoft. My Trevor and his two friends. Im always secretly jealous when he invites friends over when Im babysitting. I like to have him all to myself. We went to lunch at Ricos, our haunt when were together. I watched him wolf down a burrito as big as my leg before he grabbed the scraps off my plate of flautas. Growing boys need their nourishment! Well, like the good mother figure I am, I then took him to Duck Waddles Emporium in Leucadia to do some card shopping. Yeah, the same Ducky Waddles that sells everything Betty Page. Probably not the best environment to take a kid with all the nudity and counterculture influences, but I could tell he was thrilled at the miniature rite of passage. After all, he turns 13 this month. Thinking back now that my brother lost his virginity at that age hardly believing it.
We did a bit more shopping. I have fun walking around with him as if hes my adorable son. Im almost old enough to be his mom. Hes so wonderful, I just love him. He cracked up the guy at GI Joes with a quick one-liner, and I was so proud of him. So theyre down the hill at the guest house. This is /so/ Rancho Santa Fe. We saw a 600,000 ferrari on its way home. All the women in their Sunday sweatsuits to downplay all the work theyve had done to their bodies.
Just another casual weekend day in the ranch. Theres 150,000 dollars worth of porche and bmw in the garage right now, and theyre not even home with their third car. The money some of these people have acquired blows me away. Dinner tonight with the parents at Firenze. Guess Ill have to change out of my new cammo tank top. And if I didnt have school so damned early tomorrow, Id be going out with wonderful Amy again tonight.
God, its good to see her again! But since its going to have to be an early night, I decided to stay in and have the party come to me; I invited Miss Kerri Lou over. Lord, I cant wait to see her. She sent me a passionate email today that touched me. This is such a different side of me Im experiencing. So much more joy than shame and self-loathing than Im used to. Fucking breath of fresh air, Ill tell you all. Its just fun, and thats so what I need to be bonding with. [btw: yes, Im getting paid 10/hr to blog. What am I going to do? Grab one of their guns and hijack their game? Actually. ] 
