  Love me. For one, I got up this morning with a head full of sleep after only 10 hours and made my way out of bed and into the shower before I could decide not to make it. I went to all my classes, albeit with the help of darvocet since I did something wicked bad to my back at the gym yesterday. during sit-ups, and no I didn?t read the sign too well; I continued on through my whole routine. I met with heather hayton in between classes to buy a ticket to go with her to see the new Lord of the Rings movie that comes out on Wednesday (with the class?K this time no friends invited to ruin it for me). We spoke, and I only choked on my words once, faltering as I explained to her some anecdote about traveling and the joys of being isolated from reality and what that does to one?s writing.
It was a tidy conversation full of smiles, talk of shared passions and interests, and most importantly, no mention of past ills that took the forefront of our conversations before. Before I left, she gave me back a quickie paper I?d written as well as the midterm she let me retake since it was administered the day after the Kerri debacle. Well, you?ll never believe this, but I got a 95% on my midterm. A heather hayton midterm, mind you. The hardest prof in the land. And the paper?
Well, it sucked (I hadn?t even read the material thoroughly by the time I submitted it), and I still earned a 9/10. ha! It made my day, and I told her so. I wasn?t going to look at the scores in front of her lest I earned a sub-average mark and would have to react to it right there in her presence. So she says, ?You can look at it. You did fine.?
So what I?m expecting is a low B or something. Who knew? I let out a "holy shit!? as I scanned the bluebook for the red ink with the circled "95! and the words "very good job! " in trademark professor script.
So yeah, I did good today. AND I went to the gym after my last class, AND I took it easy with a short but energized 20 on the elliptical and only 100 sit-ups. Nothing hard on my already injured back. In fact, my whole body is damaged. My knees hurt (I thought I might not make it to my car from the gym), my ankles both swelled up, my back, even my old broken toes ached like mad today. Yet, this is what I get for getting back into shape.
It comes with the consequences of feeling more pain, thus the painkillers have made their way back into my repertoire. And I found out last night via an email that I will not have to take the final in class for Martha's British Lit II course since I have an A in the class going into it. For those of us who have done that well, she?s letting us do a take-home paper. I know I nailed an A on my last explication for her class (not graded yet), and my last one for Hayton says I scored a 93%!! So you see, I rule. I just can't wait to hand over my screenplay to heather next week on Monday morning.
I can't wait to show her how good it is, can't wait to imagine her having it and laughing. I want laughter between us, not frantic tears and anxiety. I like her, you guys. I respect her, I think she?s hot, and I have something to prove. What are you gonna do? :) I thought today I'd reward myself for the good work.
(and good deeds! I was walking behind heather to my second class and saw ahead of time that her hands were full, so I ran to the door in front of her to open it. Yes, that's something I'd do even if she looked like a she-monster) Since I'm to see the latest and greatest of the Lord of the Rings trilogy, what this class is structured around re: references to epics, I thought I'd sit my butt down on the couch with some beer and watch the other movies. Well, I only have one of them here, and god knows I'm not good for sitting down for longer than one 3-hour film. But yeah, it'll help me to understand the third one and make some sense out of it after the film when we all go out to discuss it. Oh yeah!
So, we?re all going out after the film to get a beer to talk about it and pat ourselves on the back for our fabulous efforts this semester! /so/ up my ally. I?m glad we?re all able to relax together after the film. And having some liquor between us, I?ll be able to do what I?ve intended since I fell apart this semester; to tell heather, from a I?m-doing-so-much-better-now position how much I appreciate the patience and consideration she showed me. She didn?t have to do that, and I know it. Speaking of her classes, I have some homework to do.
Perhaps before I settle down into the movie-watching. She has asked us to review Dante?s Inferno and with that to construct a hypothesis on what circle of hell we would expect to find ourselves in and why. Fun, huh? Well, since I did rename my blog after that very same topic, I?m already halfway there. It?s fun to out yourself. Or maybe it?s just me.
I like to take credit, top billing, for my sins and transgressions. To work! And then, to the store for smokes! 
