  Paper Angst It may be more difficult to take an existing paper to reshape into a new focus than it is to just start from scratch. Thats what Im deducing from this afternoons labors at the computer. Ive taken my first Woolf paper on madness and tried to write a paper for another class using Foucaults Madness and Civilization , a text we studied.
Since I already citing him in my first paper, it made logical sense. And when I went ahead with my first thesis, addressing gender and melancholia in Hamlet, I realized that I didnt necessarily want to revisit that entire play in order to frame a proper argument. So I went the easy way out; a way thats proving to have its own pitfalls. Mainly with structure. It meanders because much of what Im working with is directed towards Woolf and Septimus Smith ( M.Dalloway ). Im feeling a bit lazy about going back through the 8 pages I have now to reorder evidence and cinch up redundancies without being so concise that I lose the depth I need. Then again, this is the second-to-last paper Ill ever need to write as an undergraduate. And I love writing papers.
Why the laziness? I think it best to leave what Ive done today for another time  and not just print it out and toss it under Prof Yuans door down the road. I need a decent grade, and with all my absences Im shooting for a C in a class that I could have earned an A without effort under different circumstances. Each day in class that I was there, I turned to Gina behind me to exchange the usual comment of, God, I hate this class. You and me both, Charlotte. I would rather take a beating. Too, too boring for words. Id be so surprised if anyone in the history of Yuans 460 class ever read all the texts. Said is interesting, so is Foucault. But 600 pages of Post Colonial Discourse ? Send me the highlighted version. 
