  and then theres one more scenario this writing is reminding me of (I hope youll all understand and indulge me in this activity, this remembrance) One particularly good night together, we were after each other, soberly intense yet as primal as animals.
I had my hand on her chest just above her breasts, feeling her heartbeat but more importantly pressing on her heart-centre. It was spiritual, transcendent. She finished rather quickly with my mouth on her a moment earlier. God, I could just live between her legs. A beautiful body. So luscious. We were lying together when she descended upon me. I was so aroused, my legs were quaking in response to her first touch. Almost immediately, I could feel my uterus contracting, such a grateful uterus.
With each movement of her hands inside of me, I came. Beautifully and without end, I came. Those hands. Kerri the mechanic, the chef. My Kerri-Lou. I completely lost myself with her, looking deep into her eyes as I continued to come again and again. I was in love, you guys. I still am. I dont let just anyone have me like that. I love her.
However much Im crushed that she walked away from that. What did I do wrong? Ok, so its not about that. But Im telling you; this was the end-all and be-all, however short lived the relationship proved to be. The sound of her voice when she cried out with pleasure. I miss that. her playfulness singing along to music in her car. I miss that too. Her mannerisms, the way she spoke. The scar on her abdomen from her hysterectomy, disrupting her completely flat little tummy.
Those tiny breasts under her wife-beaters. Those toes all cutely painted in iridescent purple. I shake my head to myself as I look over what Ive written. Im hurting. I cant believe I finally conspired with someone to create such joy, and now its gone. I need a smoke. Need it. Current Mood: sad Current Music: Shelby Lynne "Lonesome" 
