  Uh. Nah. Changed my mind. I dont want to drive all the way to PB to see someone when it means hanging with his bachelor friends smoking dope and getting pissed.
After a spell in the kitchen playing with panang curry and bamboo shoots in between reading Twelfth Night, I decided I could do better with my night. Like stay in. and yes, go back to sleep. Maybe his announcement that hes leaving town for good in the coming weeks upset me.
There goes another contact, vanished. (Lights out in the houses. Well both be lonely. ) Nothing like another friendship ending to cause me to turn right around toward the house and shut the door. One less person I can call up and have a good time with. F-uck. I guess it doesnt much matter. Meaning Im not surprised given what seems to go on so often these days. I want to go out on Wednesday with the class, but I dont want to go alone.
Hm think Kerri would want to? Ha. Just the thought of asking and being ignored and/or denied cuts me. Cue shitty melodramatic music: Alone again, naturally. Hot tea and meds putting me to sleep. And Im all set to return to the happiest place on earth. 7pm, Saturday night. Do you know where your mid-20s energy is? 
