  nothing like starting the day hammering the last nail into the coffin of a friendship. deanna's just exhausted me with being an outright ditz over the last 48 hours.
my things are back to me, minus 160 bucks that i maintain that she owes me, but not in time to have the keys to my house and my medications that have little warning stickers all over each of them that read "do not skip doses or discontinue use without a doctor's supervision. " i kept my game face on through the irritation episodes with her family (god, i love mine and realize how blessed i am for having cool people in my family tree). i didn't want the mess of it all to interfere with my celebration. but lord, was i doing my best to disappear from the disorder and dimwittedness, retreating back into my mind.
"are you crying? " she asks me. no, i'm furious. looks the same though, doesn't it? well, no it doesn't. enough. i should have known better than spending an important day with a child who's boy crazy like a 13 year-old. yet bryan flaked, and my options were few. at least i'm home alone now. all set to configure my new computer! 
