  Im expecting this damned dizziness to subside soon I havent been feeling all that myself with these posts. I guess Im slow to remembering how much those pills threw me for a loop when I first was getting acclimated to them. Im at Trevors, babysitting until tomorrow night. That term is so long gone in accuracy. He walked in to say hello this morning a full grown teen-ager. Deep voice, matured features, arms and legs with the well-defined musculature of an athlete. I think it was awkward for the both of us at first.
I hadnt seen him in a couple of months. I didnt know what to say after acknowledging how much older he looks. And I cant imagine that his mid-20s babysitter is quite the same person to him anymore either. All he spoke of in his brief teenage speak was about girls. Dropping words like hot chick and horny in one sentence was a bit of a shock. It wasnt even a year ago that hed comfortably shine the idea of shower and dressing in more than his boxers when crawling out of his room in the morning. Yet hell be 14 by the end of the summer, and my thoughts of him as a charming 9 year-old are fast disappearing. Pictures soon... The folks are out of town on a house hunting adventure in Santa Barbara. A place, I gather, that is actually more expensive than Rancho Santa Fe. Impossible but true. When asked, Trevor had a mere two-word reply to the idea. He either doesnt care or was just being a teenager.
I guess thats one way of putting a cap on this relationship with them though. Otherwise, Ill be the babysitter until he gets his license, me thinks. Glad I skipped out on last night. Weve all got a different idea of how to negotiate plans and friendships. Mine are a bit less up for discussion. Its fine; schools over after all. 
