  Frustration from losing a long morning blog that I needed to post. Didnt save it in time. Searching my head for things to offset the feelings. Settling instead for inaction. Sedatives. It doesnt matter. I shouldnt be wasting my time anyway. I shouldnt be allowing myself to depend on writing to feel better. Its not real. Im going back to bed. Im going to sleep through the day and try again tomorrow. 
