  Do you ever wish you were born a gay man? I swear, I have these moments more often than I feel blessed to be a lesbian. I throw on some music from the queer male cannon of the 80s and 90s, and I cant help but feel cheated out of the personal ownership of these songs.
You know the cannon to which I speak. Lets go over a few: The Smiths New Order Erasure Pet Shop Boys Depeche Mode David Bowie Ok, so youre with me now. What gay boy do I dream of being? A few from Queer as Folks cast: Justin for sure. He still has that boyish yumminess Ive been accused of finding attractive. Second is Mr. Honeycutt. Both are so beautiful, itd almost be as cool as being a woman. Fantasy figures. Not like the ugly truth embodied by Rallin. Ive got my cock-ring/leather bracelet on again tonight.
Is that an homage to my gay male counterparts? Im thinking I need something more substantial on my left arm than just this; theres a lot of skin to cover up. At least I never have to think about actually needing something to aid in my keeping a hard on. What a pain. A drag. The new Bowie album is kind of a lovely bit of slightly manic/angry wonderful. Anyone heard it? Think Ill queue up a bit for the night as I retire. You know, if I had my brothers old bike, Id be using it to get around.
And would probably be out at a bar right now. But instead, Im staying safely indoors. Just enough entertainment here to keep me from wandering off on foot. Think Ill post on another site some of my favourite new music acquisitions. 
