  Anyone out there watch sex and the city as religiously as I do? Ok, good. Ive got a bitch. I just sat down to catch up on my shows that my mom faithfully preserved on Tivo while I was gone, and I got to sex . The end scene pissed me off. Actually, the whole thing that was gay themed.
Stanfords boyfriend well, of COURSE hes dating an ex-escort. All those gays are so loose and immoral! How lame was that? What was more lame? Um do drag queens date each other?!! Dance with each other?
Are all gay men drag queens and/or effeminate? Hel-ooo!!?? (voice of the queen that Charlottes friends with on the show) And then theres the rerun of Sopranos that I watched. The one where Ralphie kills the stripper he got pregnant. And Noah dumps Meadow. Crappy men episode.
What gives? I did save one morsel of wisdom from what I saw; Ill never be a pole dancer with my back. Speaking of which, I got a warning today. Seems someone else whos settling with the Joe is telling me that I can expect NOT a lump sum but a bimonthly payment of 300 until its satisfied. And all she got is 25g. and she thinks shell be getting more than me because she has worked there longer.
Not sure how much stock I put in it, but when I look at my financial situation, Im not put at ease. Now what?! Ive got a court date in two weeks I keep remembering the troubled sleep I had last night. Dreamt I was in a filmed play of Mamets. Strange scenes of hiding and skirting the law. Prostitution for money and shady business deals.
No wonder I woke up wet with sweat. It was so complicated too Im kind of amazed that it was so coherent. Should I write it down? Where do these things come from? Anyway, I woke up with that Im-about-to-get-really-sick feeling. When Id do something, my heartbeat would resonate in a feeling akin to being dizzy or about to faint.
Spaced out, weak, and wondering if I was facing a hard time pulling it together to do anything this weekend. I had a friends birthday party to attend earlier on this afternoon, the same group who stood me up a few months ago. I give a shit about this girl, so I made my way out and brought her a cool CD gift. Then theres Bryan. He wanted to get together. Just in case, I went by his work earlier to give him the Cuban cigar I bought for him in Barbados.
(theyre still so expensive!! ) I like the good gestures, but its hard to be all the way there. But I am feeling better. About a half a gallon of water at lunch and a third of the food I ordered, and I got my strength back. Gulping down pills of Imnell and Echinacea. Ok, ok I need to eat summore and go play with Bryan.
Itll give me an excuse to wear jeans again  I missed them so on my trip! 
