  The Shrink found it necessary to send me to a clinic for imediate help. nbsp;  Since I was a good 20lbs under weight he wanted me to make sure I was re conditioned. nbsp;
 Since the center didn't see my progress for 6 full months of starvation and odd behaviour they are taking full credit for my illness and paying for it all.
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 Also keeping it a great secret.
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 Before they sent me,  because they knew I was freaked out about being caught.
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 They brought in a doctor who was a specialist at the clinic they want to send me to.
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 To their luck,  I had an instant attachment to the doctor.
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 He was tall,  rugged looking,  completely attractive and gentle.
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 I also felt as if I new him before.
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 I was more plyable for the nurses and shrinks to run tests.
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 They learned of all my bad habbits and used me as a teaching tool for the rest of the students.
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 I was the first full out blown dangerous case they have ever seen.  &
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 Since they wanted to make an example out of me,  against the request of the doctors the center put me back in with the masses then used me as a point in meeting.
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 My lodge staff proved how evil she was,  before dinner she had me stand up and she raised up my shirt to show off my stomache and rib cage.
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 Everyone made a refferences and oooo and aweees .
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 Several girls were just down right mean and violent towards me.
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 The staff were laughing and it was just a big joke.
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 I was currently very fragile.
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 The students poked me and proded me and others tried to save me,  but as everyone went to eat I went to my room,  found me rogue razor and then went to make a phone call.  I was given the phone number to the doctor at the clinic and at his home.
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 I called his home,  he hadn't yet gotten off work so I left a mesage on his answer machine.
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 I said " You said they wouldn't know!  you said they wouldn't make reffernce to it!
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 You LIED to ME.  Once I hung up I went upstairs and draw a bath.
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 I made it supreme hot and I put on my pj's then sat in the tub water.
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 once I was comfortable I slit both wrists nice and deep.
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 The hot water was drawing out the blood faster than if I hung them out over the side.
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 I did tho hang out one wrist over the side,  I was pouring out blood like no ones business.
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 I could hear nothing,  and see nothing.
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 The doctor came home right after the message was left.
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 He decided he would call everyone from his car phone.
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 As he rushed over,  he started yelling at the Center director of Residential living&
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for the problem at hand.
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 He was so angry,  he knew what I meant he knew it,  for he told them pasfically to do the opsitie.
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 For I wasn't able to handle any more trauma on the subject.
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 He called several others,  Several staff members running to my aide,  but its been a good 25 minutes since the point of contact.
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 Staff ran to the bathroom upstairs and started yelling for me,  demanding I answer,  they went every where looked everywhere,  and finally found me.
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 In the far tub,
 blood all over the floor the water was dark red,  the side of the tub red.
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 They were in shock as to how fragile.
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 The doctor,  Jake Petersen.  Was coming up the drive when the staff members were running with me to the center clinic.
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 He went in they prepped my wounds for long term travel,  he told them he was going to take me straight to the clinic anfter he yelled at them for a good amount of time.
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He took&
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me to their emergency care and&
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gave me new blood to replentish my body.
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 I woke up in the hospital.
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 Bright room around me and no one else around.
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 I am in a gown and only wearing underwear underneath.
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 I&
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 My wrists were bandaged up and it was freezing in the room.
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 I got up and saw a another blanket in a locker near my bed.  I went for it and caccooned myself in it.
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 I slept for a few hours that way.
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 Jake came into my room and saw my caccon and laughed he asked me what I was doing and I told him I was freezing.
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Its 72 degrees here.
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yes,  thats freezing.  Up that temp to like 82 and I'll be comfortable.
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