  This had been a HELL weekend. I have never seen my husband like he was on Friday night. Scary.
But I do love him. I just thank god it is all over and I am doing what ever I can do not to make him upset with me. I have been working real hard trying to really clean my house and then everyone is going to think I am the momma from hell when I dont let them mess it up, I was up til 2:00 this morning.
Working on the house. I am tired but its worth it as long as he likes it! I am like 85% done with the laundry. The downstairs is cleaned and I need to get the upstairs done next. I have to say....I was hurting so bad the other night but did not want to make him feel bad so I told him my head hurt. but My back was killing me. I could hardly sleep for a couple of days and my throat ...ohhh my god how it hurt.
I did try giving him a Bj but it hurt so bad. I know he wanted to make love to me the other night and I REALLY wanted to make love to him. But I was hurting so bad. The pain has finally went away. Last night .... I needed and wanted to make love to him so bad. That is actually the main reason I was staying up. I wanted to show him how much I do love him.
He called at 2:00 saying he was going to eat with Daniel so I went to bed. He came home and laid down..but did not want to make love to me. It hurts so bad. I wish he knew the reason is that I was hurting..but at the same time I do not want him to feel bad about it. I just dont want him mad at me. I love him so much. and NEED To show him. 
