  My heart is aching right now for my youngest son. He went to his mothers this weekend. He had been learning to really like the new guy she was with, Roger. But now, Roger is out of the picture and a guy named Bryon is in the picture. He has got to be confused cause I know I am. I know the only reason why he goes to see his mom is because she had him a little brother. I have always wanted a baby by Ken, one of his, to show him how much I love him. My heart really hurts at times when I think that I wont ever have a baby by the man that I love so much. But now, its going to hurt worse, because I am not going to give the kids (Biran,Kimberly and austin wants me to have a baby) what they want. Thats ok, life goes on and so does my love, but I just need to find another reason for our children to want to stay. One day they will realize how much Dad (Ken) and I love them. 
