  I just finished my lower body workout. Boy was it a screemer! *Note to self - don't do sprints before a lower body workout* I've been making a point to work through my frustrations of this morning. I was so temped to belay my fears of no progress by jumping on my scale this morning, but I kept hearing Marie's words in my head "I want you to learn to trust your hard work".
That's the rub. You see, I DON'T trust my hard work. At least not yet! I keep telling myself, "Look at how far you've come!". And then my evil alter ego (Perhaps relaited to compost man? ) says "Yes, but look how far you have to go! " And yet I HAVE come far, in more then just weight. I scrolled through the blogs I posted my first week... "Monday, July 28, 2003, 12:53 PM- I weighed in at 202.5 today.
I can't stand the thought that I'm over 200 once again. I swore this wouldn't happen more then once. why do I constantly let meyself down? Why is it so hard for me to say "no". I need to figure out this mentality of mine. " "Monday, July 28, 2003, 9:13 PM- Well, it looks like I made it through the day. I ate 6 small meals and stayed on plan. I wish I felt better about it, but at the moment I just feel hungry. I'm pretty sure I need to drink more water. Perhaps that's where my hunger is coming from. But, I did make it through the day. " "Tuesday, July 29, 2003, 10:19 AM - It's morning - I made it through 1 entire day.
1 down 83 to go. I'm hoping that eventually I get a burst of energy, and some motivation and start to feel some HOPE. At the moment I just feel so let down. Everything I've tried has failed... I just don't want this to fail too. " I've come a long long way from "Just getting through the day"! The results will come, they have to.. I'm not a girl who will take no for an answer! 
