  *groan* Friday it started, an ice cream and some cookies - and then it continued - Monday I was thinking.&nbsp; This will start on Tuesday, I'm going back to work.&nbsp; Then I walk into work and remembered it was someone's 40th birthday and they had brought in every breakfast no-no known to man, and I continued to graze.&nbsp; I think it may have just stopped when 10 minutes ago, while eating cake, I realized that I was moments from making myself sick!
Why do i do this?&nbsp; How does it go so far so fast.&nbsp; How can I stand there poping doughnuts the whole while hating the way I feel in my clothes?&nbsp; I don't understand the mentality and it's ME doing it!
I'm a food adict.&nbsp; I know this.. I known it for a while.&nbsp; What I haven't figured out is how to get over it.&nbsp; The only way for me to do this seems to be cold turkey, but then the body's not designed to go without food - so I'm left having to monitor myself.&nbsp; ARG.. this is all so frustrating and currently so completely depressing.
No - I'm NOT giving up.&nbsp; I'll continue to bang my head against this brick wall until SOMETHING gives.&nbsp; Hopefully it's not my head! I'm going to run tonight - 2 miles - hopefully my sluggishness will be gone by then.&nbsp; And I'm going to do better.&nbsp; No, not tomorrow, but here and now.&nbsp; There is no reason why I can't make the rest of today count... &nbsp; 
