  geez, that last post was a bummer. but, of course, genuine. and that seems like a great goodness of blogging or any other kind of journaling -- leaving the rawness of down-ness out in public... so today i've decided that while the arch-sin / root - sin / worst sin is still pride -- one of the most culturally pervasive expressions of it in the western evangelical world is -- forgetting to keep the SABBATH.
Rest. i'm thinking today that the opposite of rest isn't motion -- its ambition. And I need a break from my own crazy ambition. i'm exhausting myself with the subtle inexplicit hubris of -- 1. ) saying yes to everything. 2. ) trying to make the institutions i participate in... the best or better. 3. ) doing my best at my work all the time (which inevitably means screwing up my best in other contexts)... the lie of the public relations era -- and / or the bad version of the sophists -- and / or "quality stamped all over it.
" is that whatever we do has to look like (/be) the best. and that's not really seeming very core to the beattitudes or the fruits of the spirit or sacrifice or even plain old incarnation when i think about it... but today's felt much better than yesterday -- i think b/c i'm resting -- worked out at the Y. Got a haircut. went to the donut shop with the kids before jaelyn's school. peace~ 
