  . ten minute posts . i've been reading plays lately. lots of tragedies. do you know what tragedies are? (i know you do, i'm not trying to be pedantic. i've just realized anew what they are. ) tragedies are endings where characters realize something about themselves that they've been avoiding.
so last night as i polished off a few glasses of mark's homemade great wine -- i had a moment which, if i were to have died or been raptured (imagine my surprise at *that* moment) or a curtain come sweeping across his porch and thunderous (or measly applause) followed, would have been tragic. i asked mark to be honest as i pitched him the play i've been toiling over for a few days. i love how well mark's b.s. detector works. he was "intrigued," but he said words that were a deathknell even through my buzz and the beautiful summer air.
"sounds therapeutic. " shit. "therapeutic. " ugh. so now i'm back to trying to figure out what story to spend my summer developing. i've had brilliant and confusing conversations with my friends urlLink gary and urlLink cliff -- these in-the-process-of-succeeding filmmakers who i'm *so* glad to have as friends. (they weren't confusing. i think that they have life much more by the balls than i. its me and what i want and what i've done and where i am thats confusing.
) didn't it seem like everyone you knew who was thirtysomething was a little more sure of what they were up to than you feel like you are now that you're (t/)here. i love (/hate) these the the lyrics: Mirror, mirror on the wall You've watched me grow since I was small So what will I regret the most The things I do or the things I don't?
The deeper you peer into my soul You'll find that I already know But I can't say it Because I can barely face it My life is halfway through And I still haven't done What I'm here to do so my new plan is: (my new plans! -- if i had a nickel for every new plan) ten minute posts only... so rants might get curbed in the middle.... the happiest part of my day? i get to go out with Lynn, my girlfriend, who i miss lately, but i think is incredibly attractive. i'm hoping to get lucky... peace~ 
