  Well sort of. She doesn't want me to be. But she isn't doing anything about it. It's just my decaying guts, I think. I lost seven pounds in a month, and I've been eating, altho less since it hurts like a bitch a lot of the time. Countdown to heroin and valium in five days! Scared as hell! I so won, Linds, on a relative scale! And Z never sang, so HA! 
