  Yesterday was a pretty cool day. Headed out to the old neighborhood with Peter Dressel to grab some pics. I was giving it thought as to what would be best in giving everyone an idea what I am and how I got here. It was funny when I got to my old block and started taking some pics if front of the typical ghetto memorial mural.
Went across the street to where my three fingers decided to take a permanent vacation and left my body. It was weird standing there. I haven't stood on that same spot in about 14 years. Something kinda clicked inside of me and it was clear to see it was anger. 14 years later and I still get pissed when I go back to that day. Some people know a story, some people know THE story, some people know the truth. Either way, standing there with a camera in my face clicking away and my heart racing, it was probably the hardest thing I have done this year.
Decided to head to the cemetery and take some shots out there. The only place where I can go and forget about poetry, life, work, girl issues, cars, full of shit niggers, rats and bitches. I go to the cemetery a little too much in my older years. I tend to usually go visit my uncle. I thought about it yesterday about how much I think about my eternal sleep. Seeing a tombstone with my very own last name always makes me feel calm.
The thought that one day I don't have to LIVE life anymore is something that I look forward to. I don't really care about heaven, hell, purgatory... it 's the long relaxed sleep that I look forward to. I know, it's morbid but sleep comes far and few these days. When we posed, the sky opened up and it was clear as day. It was cold as fuck but it was beautiful. Peter was digging shooting at a cemetery. I gave him a first and that always makes me feel good.
Decided to go pick up this kat that meant alot to me back in the day to include him in the " what made me Project" I haven't hung with Wil in a while and I am still amazed at how he will drop anything in 2 seconds to do whatever I say. We decided to head back to Elder ave to the building where I haven't stepped foot since the day I moved out. Walked into the lobby and took some cool shots in front of a window full of bullet holes. That has to say the most for me right there.
Elder ave..... wow I miss that block but I don't want to be back there. Same shit and nothing new there. Fish 
