  I'm at work, I don't feel particulary well, i started falling asleep randomly whilst watching Vanilla Sky last night. I think it's just a cold, but i feel rough, not worth moaning about. I've written about this before, but at the moment I do feel unbelievably lame and useless when it comes to helping one of my best friends.
She's going through stuff at the moment which you find hard to imagine, and i find there's little advice to give, you just end up in a situation where you don't know what to say. At other times she gets so visibly annoyed and frustrated you dont know if continuing to talk about it is what she actually wants, but i do. Giving family advice is also strange because i find it so cliched and tacky, even tho its true, and sometimes its not what someone wants to hear. Theres little I can do, she knows my ear is always available - which i'm quite comfortable with, I will quite happily dispense what i think if thats required no matter how useless that seems to me. She also knows that if she needs an exit myself and others are around, either to go out somewhere, or just to come round, watch movies or summin..
I care sooo much for this person, and my inability to help can at times make me feel lame and useless, even tho i know I'm doing all i can (however little) and will do anything thats asked of me. I cried a bit as I tried to sleep last night, I felt so helpless and I couldn't stop thinking about what my friend is having to go through. Hope ur feeling better today xx 
