  what time is it? shes watching the timethe hours, the minutes, the secondsas it went agonizingly slow, as if taunting her of a hopeless and futile waiting. she doesnt know if hes just forgetful or dense and insensitive or just plain stupid. she was left with the promise that hed keep her company, at least over the phone if situations will not allow them to be physically together.
and this happy thought kept her going all week. she should have known better. how could she be dreamy and positive every time he tells her something, that hed keep his word? how could she fail to remember the times he let her down? how could she overlook the pain, the hurt, the wretchedness he had caused? she had promised herself a lot of times already that she will never expect anything from him anymore, that she will not be gullible and trusting of him to keep promises.
and he knows that, too, because no matter how heartbreaking it was for her, she had to tell him straight that shes given up any expectations she has of him. he seems to be fond of putting everything, anything ahead of her anyway. now, could you blame her, for being so insecure?
for being so doubtful and unconvinced? could you blame her if, despite already having him, she still hopes for that someone who would be with her, who would make her feel important and indispensable, who would be consistent in his affection, who would keep promises, someone who would not always put her behind and leave her hanging. and he does not know that this has now crossed her mind. and he does not know how painful it is for her to think this way.
and he does not know how miserable this makes her. and he does not know how it is to wait endlessly. no, he does not know a thing. how long could she still hang around for him? how long could she hold on to promises broken and thrown away?
she doesnt know if hes just forgetful or dense and insensitive or just plain stupid.
or maybe his claimed feelings are just slowly fading? 
