  Merry Christmas to everyone out there...it feels like just yesterday I was a little kid enjoying Christmas with my family in relative peace. Not this year...har har har. As I get older I find myself becoming ever more cynical to this holiday and I guess it is because I live in the real world compared to most people. I am not belittling their world, but it is this sacharin coated fruit cake of life that people have gotten used to. I don't know if that made sense...well it really didn't to me but lets run with it. I really hate the holidays and it wasn't because I didn't get the G.I. Joe aircraft carrier when I was a kid. I hate them because of what they have come to symbolize. The holidays have basically been hijacked by one of two groups...the capitalists and the Christians...both equally evil in my book.
Both groups attempt to monopolize this one time wonderful holiday and it is sad. From my years of learning (yes I have learned some things) I know that Jesus wasn't born in December. From the shows that have been on lately it is doubtfull he was even born in Bethlehem. The Bible goes a long way to explain why he would have been born there but in reality the system at the time wasn't so backwards that people had to travel to their birthplaces to be counted. The Romans were nothing if they weren't ruthlessly efficient. So having all these people all of a sudden moving about to get to their birthplaces would have been a logistical nightmare...and again the Romans were efficient. Another tidbit...people were named (especially in the Mid-East) something like Tobias of Galilee or Pud of someplace.
They went by their names and birthplaces...Jesus was known as Jesus of Nazareen (sp) making it likely that he was born there and not Bethlehem. The Bible moves his birthplace basically because earlier in the Bible it states that the son of god would be born in Bethlehem. It is all really interesting history because if you strip religion from it you find that the Bible has many holes in its stories and frankly doesn't add up. That points to the fact that facts and events were changed to fit a concept that the early church had.
Capitalism has hijacked the holiday as well demanding that we shower each other with gifts. Who doesn't like gifts? I sure love them...but must we save it all for one or two days of the year (Christmas and Birthdays)? The answer of coarse is no. We can give to each other anytime we please but for the sake of relatively new tradition we save it all for those days. The holidays to me are a time where you get together with friends and family and just enjoy each other.
Unfortunately because of all the stress of giving gifts and what Christianity places on people we often loose site of that and just end up treating each other like shit. The above was all I could come up with as I don't have the energy to really talk all that much about it. We went to the Cirino's tonight and had a nice meal and enjoyed each others company. It is nice to have friends like that. I consider them my extended family as they do me. I am tired already and today offers to be just plain crazy...but I hold out hope for some sanity in it all.
We will see. Just a quick note to the person who responded in my comments section below. I never have wished anything bad on anyone nor would I...in fact I have very few people that I flat out hate and Brandon surprisingly isn't one of them. I feel indifferent towards him not really caring one way or the other. I do wish him the best in his life...because he will need it. I do of coarse think that the punishment should have been more equitable but I can't change that nor would I have made stories up to get him in any jam. That isn't my style, never has been, never will be...even for the people I dislike or flat out hate. Why? Because I know that it will come back to bite me in the ass...plus I don't have the energy to let things bother me all that much.
I also wanted to quickly respond to one other thing. Brandon may have a great job where "he makes more in a day that I see in two weeks". Good...again I hope it is true because when he wants to be he can be very talented and driven (something he wouldn't regonize in myself...or any of his enemies) and with the right breaks may become someone of importance in the future. It is probably true that he will make more than I do partly because of a degree but mostly because outside of minor ailments he can work. I couldn't hold any job of merrit not because I am stupid or undeducated...but because I am often in the hospital...so working is difficult when you can't be at your job.
So if it true great if it isn't I hope that it does become true because lord only knows that he is an unhappy individual (similar to myself in many regards). Side note...I have written a lot for my book. I don't know how it will end or how it will play...but it will certainly be interesting to finish it.
I even have a working title...so it looks like I can make it fly at some point. The hardest part of writing is that things flood in all at once and it is sometimes hard to get it all down, but I am working on that. I currently have two seperate things I am writing, one is on me, the other is fiction. So we will see. Anyways people. Merry Christmas and I hope your holiday is a happy one. Don't forget to sign your organ donor cards because god forbid something happen, if it did then you can spread the greatest gift of all. The gift of life. Look for the link and get your card made up and ready. Peace 
