  So the guy I like... He is such a nice guy. He is so smart. He is funny. He has a very good taste in music. And he looks very nice in dress-up clothes. What more could a girl want? Ok, so he is not like the typical guy that girls fall over themselves for, at least, I don't think he is.
But he is very nice and he has a very cute smile. I only get to tall to him sporadically but I really enjoy it when I do get to talk to him. The problem is that I just don't know how to act around guys I like. It is pretty crazy. I wish that I could just completely forget all of my insecurities about myself and just not be afraid to go all out and make an effort to see him more and talk to him a lot. But I mean, I didn't even talk to him at the NHS induction and he was standing like right there. Oh the confusion. Heh, but it is worth it. I am serious. I haven't liked a guy in so long.
I love it. I had a dream last night that I was buried up to my neck in sand and he came up to me and started talking to me in a foreign language. And then I was at TAMS but it was like a really rich school and really pretty and then he was there for some reason.
It was a weird dream. I don't know if I will ever have an excuse to talk to him ever again...how incredibly depressing!!! I will find a way. I must find a way. hehe, I crack myself up. This is so fun. It's like an adventure. I wish I could have a relationship. I have music planned out for each stage of the relationship. Even the break up music. Well, anyways, I just thought that I would comment on this aspect of my life. But I must leave now. Lisa "Look at me, my depth perception must be off again Cause this hurts deeper than I thought it did It has not healed with time It just shot down my spine You look so beautiful tonight Remind me how you laid us down And gently smiled before you destroyed my life" -Saliva 
