  Went to see "lucia y el sexo" last night... yep, Sergio was right (http://www.overcaffeinated.net). It's a movie with big time explicit sexual content, yet even if you take that aside it's still a very good movie. ;o) HA!... no it is actually a rather interesting story line in which the lives of quite some people just keep tangling, and the "time-line" keeps jumping back and forth.
I went over there with Chris (the german), and Hector, had a fun conversation with them about "life after college" and the things we should do. That has been a question in my heart for a while now... what should I do?. I'm scared of going back to WIU since most of the greatest memories that I have from over there are with Abby, yet she is no longer part of my life...
I get the feeling that if I go back I will be rather depressed and lonely, with no real close friends to talk to... so, I guess I should skip. It's hard though to think that the little times I get to see her this semester will probably be the last times in ourlives... How will she do?, which is going to be her married name?, where is she going to be living?, will she be happy?...
oh pues... I guess I'll never know. I'm really getting tired of being a person from "derecha" (the right)... why can't I just don't give a dime and keep going, not caring about life and others?... I get too involved, I care too much, I want to help... and that sometimes makes me crazy. Mmmm... the "right and left" thing started up with Allan, and so that you get it really quick you can talk about people "in the left", people "in the center", and people "in the right"... It's a very confusing idea, but you can kind of understand it by checking out their "burdens" in life...
The burden of the people from the left is that, as much as they are anarchist, "loners", and they pretty much don't appreciate social norms, they HAVE to live in society, they are allways "jailed" to the rules of this world, and when they actually do what they feel like, a lot of the times they end up in jail or a mad-house.
The burden of the people from the rigth, on the other hand, is that they care too much. They tend to be overly optimistic and possitive about life and stuff... they want to help others, make this a "happier" world... yet they can't... and then they get depressed. They care so much about someone that seems "sad" (from their perspective), that they get sad as well because that person can't be happy. (mmm... too simplistic way to put this things down... I hope you are getting the idea though).
And well... the people from the center?... they are sooooo uninvolved that they lack a sense of "group"... they don't really fit, and most of the times are the true loners, going back and forth between the left and right, yet never with the passion in life that would drive them to a specific goal. They don't really swim in the river... they just kind of float in it... yet it's not such a burden for them because, they really don't care. By the way... I woke up thinking of abby this morning again... damn!... oh well.
I'm going to a concert tonight, kind of pumped about that. 
