  July 10th 2003.. It's Her Exam Today.. Stayed Up The Entire Night With Her Yesterday.. Was Her Anti Stress Depressant.. There Were Times When I Really Can't Take It Anymore.. As In The Z.z.z..z.z.zz Monster Tried To Grab Me To Bed.. But I Won The WAR !! Ahahahahaha.. Was Too Worried For Her Too..
Such Little Sleep.. I Dunno If She Could Take It.. Anyway.. Gave A Wake Up Call @ 540am And 615am Hehehe As Her Dad Was Givin' Her A Lift To School.. Was Bloggin' Bout Our Day Out On The 7th Of July So I Slept @ Around 7am.. PErhaps I Was Too Tired... I Only Managed To Crawl Out My Bed @ 1045.. Was SHOCKED @ How Little Time I've LEft !!! Took A Quick Shower And Off I Go !!!
Took A Cab Down As I Was Afraid To Be Late.. 'Cos I'm Meetin' Her @ 12noon. Reached Her School Earlier Then I Expected.. But It Was Only When I'm In The Toilet Then I Realized Tat I've Not Gotten Her Any Rose !!!! DAMN IT !! But It's Too Late.. I Can't Simply Take A Cab Down To Some Florist And Leave Her There Waitin'..
So I Was Thinking To Myself.. Since We're Goin' Down To Orchard.. PErhaps We Could Walk Pass Some Florist Along The Way.. And The Weather Wasn't Great Either.. Was Raining And Drizzlin' Despite The Sun.. Asked Her Bout Her Paper While We Walked To The Bus Stop To Catch Bus 143 To Orchard. I Could Sense Tat She's Very Tired From The Way She's Restin' On My Shoulders.. It Must Have Been HArd On Her.. :((((((( Went Straight Up To CineLeisure Once We Alighted.. Lunch Will Be @ LIPS CAFE !!!
But B4 Tat We Were Like Should We Be Watchin' A Show ?? CITY OF GODS !! Hehehe Yeah The Show We Were Supposed To Watch Back On The 4th Of July *YEAP NOT DISCOVERY OF HEAVEN THIS TIME ROUND" So We Bought 2 Tix For The Movie Which Would Only Start @ 1910 * -_____- * As She Didn't Had Much Sleep For The Pass Few Days Especially The Day B4 Her Papers.. I'm Worried Tat She Couldn't Take The Tiredness.. ;(((((((((((((( *SiGh* So After Gettin' The Tix We Proceeded To LIPS CAFE For Lunch. Ordered A Different Set Lunch Each So Tat We Could Share.. Hehehe And Of Course.. *DrumRolls* NY CHEESECAKE !! Ehehehehe..
Spent Bout 2 1/2 Hrs There As We Had A Slow Lunch And Was Gossiping Around While She's On The Magazine.. Hehehe.. Was Busy Feedin' Each Other Too.. Ohhh IT's Jus So Good To Be Real.. *Pinched Myself* Ouchhh.. Really.. The Cheesecake Seems To Be The Sweetest Desert I've Ever Had. ;PppPPpPppPppPPppPP So After Lunch We Went Around CineLeisure As It Was Still Raining And Guess Wat ?? She Actually Bumped Into Gareth!! Hahaha.. Singapore Is Indeed A Really Small Place.. Anyway The Rain Finally Stopped..
So We Stepped Outta CineLeisure And Headed To ESPIRIT To Do Some Window Shoppin' Suddenly Her Dad Called And Ask Her Where She Was And Why Didn't She Bought Lunch Back From Shenny And She Had To Lie Tat She's With Her Schoolmates. Went To TAKASHIMAYA Shortly After.. Window Shoppin' Around For Bout An Hr Ehehehehe.. We Went To Tiffany & Co To Look Look.. Hahahahaha She Said Tat We Dress So Lok Go In Abit The PaiSeh Hehehe But I Said NeverMind We're Jus Takin' A Look It's No Big Deal Right ?? So We Went In. Wow.. I Tell Ya The Jewels Available Inside Were Stunnin'.. *Same Goes To The Price* She Tried On A Ring Which Cost $24k *OoOOOoOOoOOooOooOooOO* But To Tell The Truth.. She Look Great With It..
Sigh If Only I Could Afford It.. I Would've Got It For Her.. ;((( Left Tiffany & Co To Oprah's Gallery To Browse Around.. Ohhhh The Arts Were Great.. Now I Know Why Some Artist Could Really Earn Alot.. A Painting Can Easily Fetch Up 10k Or More!!! :D~~~~~~ $$$$$$$$$$ Well Actually She Wanted To Visit Her Friend Valerie @ Zara But Due To Time Constriction We've Gotta Go Back To CineLeisure For The Show.. So We Abandoned The Idea And Had Dinner @ YOSHINOYA. Bumped Into 2 Guys Which We Saw Earlier @ LipsCafe.. She Told Me Tat One Of The Keep Kept Starin' OVer And I Went All * -________________________- * Becareful Guys.. Becareful.. Grr.r.r...r.r.r.rr.rr.rrrr Had A Full Dinner So No Popcorns Nor Drinks For The Show !!! So We Sat Down And Relax Back To Watch The Show.. Then Something Happened.. My HP RANG !!!
Arghh I Forgot To Turn Off/Slient My HP !! Darn It !! I Could See The Look From Her Face.. Oh God.. She's Pissed !!!!! Damn It !! But I Can't Deny Tat It's Not My Fault.. I Can Only Admit And Acknowledge My Own Carelessness.. Tat's All I Can Do..
But She Kinda Like Darted Away From Me.. And Crossed Her Hands Which Was Suppose To Be Holdin' Mine.. I Was Devastated.. I Know Tat I'm In Deep Sh*t.... I Was Lost @ Wat To Do.. I Laid Back Feelin' Down.. I Couldn't Even Concentrate On The Movie..
I Looked Away Coverin' My Face.. My Mind Was Completely Blanked.. The Heart Felt Heavy And The Breathin' Went Sighin'. I Really Dunno Wat To Do.. I Think It Lasted For 15 Mins.. I Dare Not Speak To Her.. Dare Not Look @ Her.. Am Afraid Tat She'll Give Me The Stare And Look Away.. I Couldn't Take Tat...
I'll Feel Hurt And Remorseful.. But Things Jus Can't Be Lydat.. Finally I Turned To Her And Said In A Tremblin' Voice.. "I'm Sorry..." I Have Tat I'm Really Sorry Look On My Face.. I Repeat Myself Again.. "I'm Really Sorry.." Gosh I Felt Like Cryin'.. I Know I'm In The Wrong.. I'm Sorry Sweetie..
I Screwed Things Up.. She Never Said Anything Except Lookin' @ Me.. She Reached For My Hand And Hold It... I'm Speechless.. I Almost Burst Out My Tears.. I Held Her Hands Back Tightly Too. We Finished The Show Hands Holdin' Each Other's.. Walked Out Of CineLeisure After The Show.. As It's Already Passed 2100 Then..
I Urged Tat We Should Go Back Already.. I'm Really Worried Tat She'll Fall Sick Again... I Dun Anything To Happen To Her.. But She Said It's Alright.. So We Walked Down Orchard Towards ISTANA PARK.. On The Way She Asked Me Where's The Rose Tat I Promised To Give Her Everytime We Met.. AGain I Went Dumb.... I Told Myself.. "Tat's It.. First I Made Her Pissed @ The Movies.. Now I'm Breakin' My Promise..
I'm A Gonner.. I'm Such A LetDown.. I Never Made Her Happy.. I Even Broke My Promise Tat I Made To Her.. I'm Such A Failure.. I'm Such A Loser..
Such Incompetence.. A Fool.." I Failed Totally As A Boyfriend.. Sigh.. Wo Zhen Shi Ge DA ZHU TOU !!!!!!! I Hate Myself So Much.. OH SO MUCH.. Although She Said It Was Alright And She's Not Mad But I Can Sense Tat She's Disappointed.. And I'm SUCH A LETDOWN !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Oh I So Wanted To Kill Myself.. So I Tried To Look Okay Jus So Tat I Wouldn't Make The Situation Worse.. ISTANA PARK Was Full Of People Already..
So We Went Over To Plaza Singapura To Check Out The Next Underground Passage Which Links The New NORTH EAST Line.. *Actually It's So Tat I Could See Whether I Could Get A Rose From There.. But Alas The Florist Had Already Closed* Time Was Runnin' Out.. So I Sent Her Home.. My Mood Wasn't Gettin' Any Better.. Only Got Worse.. But I Still Smiled And Laugh Along The Way.. It Was Only When We Parted From Her Place And I Was LEft Alone Did All My Emotion Rushed Out.. I Hung My Head Low.. Sighin' As And When I Could.. Frowned All The Way Back Home As I Stoned On The Bus..
This Was Wat She Sent Me When I Reached Home.... " Funny How Time Can Make Relationships More Colorful And Dull On The Other Hand! Actually Just Wanna Let You Know Tat I'm Sori For My Behavior Today! I Really Wanna Treasure You As Well As You Do For Me. Am Sorry For My Mean Attitude And If I've Hurt You Deep! :( GTG ZzZ LEr.. Shall Tok To You Lata! Oh, No Inspiration 4 A Goodnight SMS Today Huh ?..
Wat A Let Down Today =( " I Was Composin' A GoodNight Msg For Her When This Msg Came In.. Upon Receivin' It And After Readin'.. I Felt Worse.. It's Not Your Fault Sweetie.. It's All Mine.. It's All Mine..
I Was Being Such A Loser.. And Yes.. Am Really A LetDown.. I Felt Shameful.. Totally Ashamed Of Myself.. It's Not Your Fault Sweetie.. It'll Never Be.. I've Never Been Mad , Angry Or Pissed @ Anything You'd Do..
I Love You Too Much Already.. I've Given My Heart So Totally To You.. I Love You Sweetie.. I Love You.. And I'll Always Cherish The Times We Spent Together And Things We've Done.. And I'll Always Look Forward In Every Single Thing We'll Be Doin'.. I Love You.. I Love You. 
