  No sisters until thursday I am entitled to be happy!!!!!!! GRRRR! but now i'm getting sick thanks to sara ...she was sick last night. got better just in time to go to camp today( woulda made her go anyway ) and now i want to hurl. Hate when that happens. Expecially over the summer. just not fair. Oh yeah, and just to set the record straight. I was at club worship last night. not next month. Lol. the things that get mixed up... Oh yeah, anyone who's been in the d&d game since ...last summer, if you want to check your calenders for the 26th of this month... maybe we can get another day in of gaming.
maybe see how quickly "fifi"( infiel ) can run away from an ax weilding thug who shall remain nameless... On top of it all... I hurt. and its not even just the physical pains of a bruised ankle or reinjured wrist. its that tight ache at the base of the throat, and that curled tightness in the chest... everytime i see Him and fall under his spell... or when i dont talk to Him for days to weeks at a time... But i'm so physically attracted to him ... and i think a little emotionally and mentally. But on the other hand theres another guy, who i quite honestly think i'm slowly falling in luv with... But how can i be so completely drawn towards one guy... and care so deeply about another miles away?
And i know so many people think him and i are totally wrong for eachother and that it would never work out... and i also know people think he treats me like crap and has ver lame excuses for not dating me... but at the same time he can be so sweet, and funny, and and fun and strong...not to mention a complete flirt. But on the other hand He lives states away from me, and doesnt know when, or if, he'll ever be here. Yet he's so understanding and funny and we can talk for hours about nothing and enjoy it. But both of them have made me cry before...despite their ability to make me smile... One leads me on and the other tells me not to wait.
What to do...and can anything take this ache away? Do more than two people have any clue what this Hell is doing to me? Or should i just turn away.... Have a Great Summer Song: "Land of the Living" by Pam Tillis Emotion: Resentful 
