  "Baby, I've been here before-- I've seen this room and&nbsp;I've walked this floor. I used to live alone before I knew ya. And I've seen your flag on the marble arch, but love is not a victory march. It's a cold and it's a broken&nbsp;hallelujah. Hallelujah, hallelujah hallelujah, hallelujah..." ~ Hallelujah , Jeff Buckley &nbsp;&nbsp; &nbsp; Tired of this... &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; I am: still here. I love: my friends (most of the time).
I hate: certain people. I fear:&nbsp;myself sometimes. I hope:&nbsp;to feel happy. I hear:&nbsp;sad songs. I crave:&nbsp;companionship. I regret:&nbsp;my words, thoughts, and actions.
I cry:&nbsp;at night, when no one's looking. I care:&nbsp;too much. I always:&nbsp;imagine things. I believe:&nbsp;in something that may be nothing. I feel alone:&nbsp;a lot. I listen: selectively.
I hide:&nbsp;important stuff. I drive:&nbsp;poorly. I sing: in the shower. I write:&nbsp;whenever the mood strikes me. I run:&nbsp;away. I miss:&nbsp;being carefree and oblivious.
I learn: slowly. I feel: confused. I know: very little. I say:&nbsp;A lot of stupid things. I succeed: at nothing. I dream: all the time.
I wonder:&nbsp;if things will be okay. I want: happiness. I have: birthday money. I give: when I can. I recieve:&nbsp;the good and bad. I fight:&nbsp;with my family.
I need: someone to hug me and tell me I'm okay. &nbsp; &nbsp; name: Emilee age: 17 birth date: 7-17-87 sign: Cancer eyes:&nbsp;Boring brown. hair:&nbsp;Blackish-brownish. pets:&nbsp;1 pig-dog named Sparky. bf/gf: Yes. &nbsp; '' favorites '' bandz:&nbsp;Five Iron Frenzy, Reel Big Fish, Oasis, Brand New, The Clarks, The Seatbelts, The Pillows, The New York Musicians... music genre: SKA, classic rock, jazz crayon: olive green.
cereal: frosted flakes. jolly rancher flavor: sour apple color m & m: blue. hangout: nowhere. day: saturday. month: july. season: summer.
shoes: flipflops. restaurants:&nbsp;places I can afford. cars: convertable anythings. kitchen appliance: refridgerator. color of lava lamp: orange. person to talk to online: Ken.
person to talk to on the phone:&nbsp;No one. I hate the phone. memories: It's a secret. &nbsp; this or that boxers or briefs? : boxers plaid or striped? : plaid alt or rap?
: alt ska or punk? : SKA!!! classical or country? : it depends. salt or pepper? : salt.
coke or pepsi?:&nbsp;pepsi. dr. pepper or mr. pibb? :&nbsp;What's Mr. Pibb?? Sprite or 7-up?
: Doesn't matter. skittles-original, tropical, or wildberry?:&nbsp;Original. m & m's-regular, peanut, peanut-butter, or almond? : Peanut. bleh or blah? : Both, yo.
okay, ok, or o.k.? : Definately okay. shake or stir? : both are messy. bright colors or dark colors: depends. snap, crackle, or pop?
:&nbsp;oh snap. half-empty or half-full: half-empty. sunshine or rain? : both. sun or moon? : moon.
silver or gold? : silver. frogs or toads? : frogs. Toads give you warts. &nbsp; :: short answer :: left handed or right handed?
: righty. are you smart? : not really. whats your middle name? : Jade. how many personalities do you have?
: several. how many piercings do you have? : just one set in my ears. tattoos? : none as of now. what was your first word?
: Da. It was the name of my doll. It's Korean for something. do you read your horoscope? : sometimes do you believe in that stuff? : not really.
can you do a cartwheel? : not if my life depended on it. can you drive? : not well. do you keep a journal? : to some degree what languages do you know?
: English and some Spanish. do you like cotton candy? : yes do you like pina coladas? : never had one. what do you sleep in? : the nude.
how many pillows do you have? : a lot. how many times have you moved houses? : once. is your room messy? : hell yes.
do you like your handwriting? : I hate my chicken scratch. do you like to fingerpaint? : Who doesn't? do you sleep with a stuffed animal(s)?:&nbsp;sometimes. are you ticklish?
: very. did you go to preschool? : yes are you a morning person? : not at all. &nbsp; "hard questions" would you rather burn to death or freeze to death? : both sound horrible.
But freezing sounds less painful. would you eat a bowl of live crickets for $40,000? : depends on how big of a bowl. if you had a band what would you name it? : Root Beer Chaser. where do you want to live?
: Someplace far far away. Probably Australia. you had to dye your hair right now, what color would you make it?:&nbsp;Blue. if you had to get a body piercing right now where would it be? : my ear. if you had to get a tattoo right now, what would it be?
: Wings on my shoulderblades. Spell your name backward: eelime. If you could have any animal for a pet, what would it be? : A horse.&nbsp; Ever been to Belgium? : no. What's your favourite coin?
: quarter. &nbsp; describe your.. Pillow cover: It's got horses on it. Coffee cup: It's got horses on it. Sunglasses: brand new ones that go with my glasses. They kick ass. Shoes: sandels Favorite top:&nbsp;Wife-beaters.
Favorite pants:&nbsp;The blue jeans with the hole in the knee. Cologne/Perfume:&nbsp;Ceadarwood and Clary Oils from Bath and Bodyworks. CD in stereo right now:&nbsp;The CD Blender burned for me. THANKS, NAGEM!!! Wearing: Boxers and my Reel Big Fish shirt. Makeup: none.
&nbsp; appearance &nbsp; hair:&nbsp;Shoulder-length, brownish-black, with a wave to it near the ends. height: 5'1" thinking of:&nbsp;rain. &nbsp; last thing you... bought: it's a secret. read:&nbsp; My Neighbor was a Modern-Day Monster . It rocked my world. &nbsp; either / or tea or coffee: tea beer or cider: cider cats or dogs: dogs single or taken: taken.
pen or pencil: pencil. gloves or mittens: gloves. Mittens restrict finger-movement. food or candy: candy. cassette or cd: CD. &nbsp; ::you:: want- to smile.
need-&nbsp;to be happy. live to- live. make- pictures. want to be- cooler. you are: a dork. &nbsp; X[4]X Name Four Bad Habits You Have: - I lie -&nbsp;I'm an insomniac -&nbsp;I sink into random bouts of depression -&nbsp;I procrastinate &nbsp; Name Four Things That You Wish You Had: - contentment - money - a bunch of Tria Markers - better eyesight.
&nbsp; Name Four Scents You Love: - Autumn leaves. - Vanilla -&nbsp;Anything grilled. - The smell of horses. If you could bottle it, I'd bet you'd make a fortune. &nbsp; Name Four People That Know You the Best: - Arynn - Meghan - Brad - Blender &nbsp; Name Four Things You Are Thinking About Now: -&nbsp;It's a secret. -&nbsp;I can't tell you.
-&nbsp; -&nbsp; &nbsp; Name Four Things That You Have Done Today: -&nbsp;Got dressed. -&nbsp;Got online. -&nbsp;Felt like I wanted to be dead. - wrote this thing. &nbsp; Name the Last Four Things You Have Bought: - Jane Eyre - clothes. - slurpee.
- secret suprise. &nbsp; Name Four Bands/Groups Most People Don't Know You Like: - Jason Mraz - Steve Conte - The Ataris - Bowling for Soup &nbsp; Name Four Drinks You Regularly Drink: -Root Beer - Sprite - Tea -&nbsp;Slurpees &nbsp; X[random]X First Grade Teacher's Name? : Mrs. Warner Last Words You Said? : "By Grandpa. It was nice to meet you, Ms. Ruth.
" Last Song You Sang? :&nbsp; Socco Amarretto Lime by Brand New Last Person You Hugged? :&nbsp;My&nbsp;Grandpa.&nbsp; Last Thing You Laughed At? : the TV. Last Time You Said 'I Love You' and meant it? :&nbsp;I can't remeber.
Last Time You Cried? : last night. What Color Socks Are You Wearing? : none. What's Under Your Bed? : God only knows... What Time Did You Wake Up Today?
: 11:00AM &nbsp; X[current]X Current Taste? : morning breath >___0&nbsp; Current Hair? : ratty and unbrushed Current Clothes? : boxers, and a Reel Big Fish T-shirt Current Annoyance? : everything. Current Longing?
: company. Current Desktop Picture? : Yellow tulips. Current Worry? : my life. Current Hate?
: myself. &nbsp; X[more random]X Favorite Physical Feature Of The Opposite Sex? : smile. Last CD You Bought? : I can't remember. Favorite Place To Be?
: With people that like me. Least Favorite Place? : home. Time You Wake Up In The Morning? : between 9 and 2 If You Could Play An Instrument? : I play piano, guitar, and trumpet.
Favorite Color? : green. Do You Believe In An Afterlife? : yes.&nbsp; How Tall Are You? : 5'1" Current Favorite Word/Saying? : oh man...
Favorite Season? : summer. One Person From Your Past You Wish You Could Go Back And Talk To: My birthmother Favorite Day? : Friday. Where Would You Like To Go? : away.
What Is Your Career Going To Be Like? :&nbsp;creative and enjoyable.&nbsp; How Many Kids Do You Want? : none. Favorite Car? : convertable anything. A Random Lyric: She's not anyone... Identify Some Of The Things Surrounding Your Computer: A guitar capo, a couple picks, and fifty million floppy disks.
&nbsp; -----------------DESCRIBE------------------ --Your heritage: Korean (we assume). -- The shoes you wore today: none. -- Your eyes: boring brown. -- Your weakness: I'm not very perceptive -- Your fears: never finding a place to belong. -- One thing you'd like to achieve: I'd like to fly. &nbsp; -----------------WHAT IS------------------ -- Your most overused phrase on aim: sweet -- Your thoughts first waking up: mmphfblh..zzzzzz..... -- The first feature you notice in the opposite sex: yeah, it's a guy.
-- Your best physical feature: my... uh... asian-ness? -- Your bedtime: whenever I fall asleep. -- Your greatest accomplishment: my survival. -- Your most missed memory: I can't tell you. &nbsp; -----------------YOU PREFER------------------ -- Pepsi or coke: Pepsi -- McDonald's or Burger King: McDonald's. -- Single or group dates: Depends.
-- Adidas or Nike: Payless Shoes Bargain. -- Chocolate or vanilla: Chocolate. -- Cappuccino or coffee: neither. -- Bras or Panties: both. &nbsp; -----------------DO YOU------------------ -- Smoke: no. -- Cuss: like a sailor.
-- Take a shower everyday: yes, but if I'm lazy I skip a day. -- Have a crush(es): yes. -- Who are they:&nbsp;My boyfriend. -- Do you think you've been in love? : maybe once or twice. I can't be certain.
-- Want to go to college: kind of. -- Like high school: not really. -- Want to get married: I don't think so. -- Type w/ your fingers on the right keys: I don't know. -- Believe in yourself: not usually. -- Get motion sickness: not usually.
-- Think you're attractive: I think I look like me. -- Think you're a health freak: not at all. -- Get along with your parents: never. -- Like thunderstorms: when I work. -- Play an instrument: I play several. &nbsp; ------------IN THE PAST MONTH DID:/:HAVE YOU---------------- --Drank alcohol: yes.
-- Smoke(d): no. -- Done a drug: no. -- Have Sex: no. -- Made Out: yes. -- Go on a date: yes. -- Go to the mall: yes.
-- Eaten sushi: no. -- Been on stage: yes. -- Been dumped: no. -- Gone skating: no. -- Made homemade cookies: I can't cook to save my life. -- Been in love: I don't know.
-- Dyed your hair: no. -- Stolen anything: yes. &nbsp; -----------------HAVE YOU EVER------------------ -- Flown on a plane: no. -- Missed school because it was raining? : Hahhah, once we told Tim Talerak that the band concert was cancelled because it was raining and so he stayed home. Hahahaha.
-- Told a guy/girl that you liked them? : yes -- Cried during a Movie? : yes -- Ever thought an animated character was hot? : yes -- Had an imaginary friend: yes -- Been on stage? :yes -- Cut your hair: yes -- Had crush on a teacher? :no -- Played a game that required removal of clothing?
: yes -- Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: no -- Been caught "doing something": no -- Been called a tease: yes -- Gotten beaten up ? : yes. I had a rough childhood. -- Been in a fight: yes. I started it. -- Shoplifted: No.
&nbsp; -----------------THE FUTURE------------------ -- Age you hope to be married: I don't know if I want to get married. -- Numbers and Names of Children: none. I don't want kids. -- Descibe your Dream Wedding: One where I can elope. -- How do you want to die? : dramatically.
Like getting hit by a car right in the middle of my graduation ceremony. -- What do you want to be when you grow up? : a successful children's book illustrator -- What country would you most like to visit? : asia. &nbsp; -----------------OPPOSITE SEX------------------ -- Best eye color: blue or green. -- Best hair color: any color.
-- Short or long hair: doesn't matter. -- Best height: taller than me. -- Best weight: doesn't matter. -- Best first date location: movie at home. -- Best first kiss location: on the mouth. &nbsp; -----------------NUMBER OF----------------- -- Number of girlfriends you've had: none.
--Number of kisses you've given: a million -- Number of drugs taken illegally: number? -- Number of people I could trust with my life:&nbsp;a few. -- Number of CDs that I own: a bunch, too many to count. -- Number of piercings: 2 -- Number of tattoos: 0 -- Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper? : like 5. -- Number of scars on my body: too many to count.
-- Number of things in my past that I regret: too many to count. 
