  ::: Where have I been What ::: 7:57 pm - Paranoid I need to get out of the house I'm becoming a little paranoid. Well this weekend and due to poor planning on my part I'll be spending saturday at jazz fest with my parents. I'm thinking of not going with them and just staying at home though. :( My big birthday weekend is not looking so great I don't really have a plan. I have no idea what I'm going to do. If any one has any ideas about what I should do please respond.
I want to do something thats fun and or totally immature and ridiculous. I must take hold of my youth and leave the daily grind if only for a day to have fun damit. "If at all you believe in the aging of the soul than you will see my wisdom despite my face. " - Randee It's a time for reflection so I have to choose, give up smoking or go on a diet. I have to smoke again do to the demands of my job and my finals. I got out of bed feeling more like my dad than myself this morning just a little sore all over. I'm dealing though. I've been tagging again I need more paint I never seem to have enough. If I carried anymore with me I'd sound like one giant can of spray paint. I haven't had a chance to break out my skate board yet but I think about it everyday when I'm downtown and I see all those rails and inclines and mmmmm rails.
(Drools) I need to make more friends. :( There's a job that I want and I'm crossing my fingers on it come on IRS. x'o's Randy Mclonely current mood: anxious current music: The butchies - trouble (2 comments | comment on this) Monday, April 26th, 2004 -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- 6:21 pm - So riot Oh that sadmaddog, she's so riot.
It was such a delight to read what she had to say in the paper this morning at work. Rock on Well I've been kinda jittery lately 7 days in counting till my birthday and I have no idea what I'm going to do. The day after my birthday my parents will be out of town so I'm going to need to chain myself to a doorknob far away from the phone so that I don't call my ex for well you know.
I need to find an inexpensive practice space for my drums that are soon to be. This weekend I decided to do my I'm soo bord and lonely routine. I got up saturday and finally dragged myself out of the house to ride my bike for a couple of hours. I went to mid-city to argue with some folks over at my old job over a tape that they said I didn't turn in. I didn't argue with the little smartass manager I decided to take the high road and call in a favor from my old fellow co-workers who hate hollywood video just as much as I do. So I took a deep breath and peddled off to fairgrinds where I had some um water because I don't drink coffee. Than I just kind of peddled around. After that I went to cowpokes, I love it, I can go there and listen to sad country, drink budlight, and dance the night away with some nice uh cowpokes. I left there and met Alestor for some moon wok mmm so yummy as always but it gave some of my friends gas so we have to find a new place for saturday night dinners.
After that I tagged along to the gay boy bars where we stayed for what seemed like forever. I (peeking around) sometime like gay boy bars because they make me feel so sexy. I got my chub rubbed. :) Some guy felt the need to stroke my belly. While another man rubbed my back and said "I wish were a man".
Yea I'm just so damn sexy I don't know what to do. :P J/kidding I miss my friends :( Cody came through I got the new butchies cd and dvd. Thanks anyway to anyone who might have offered help on some matters. :)winking~ Anyhoo test this week and next week and thats it. I guess all thats left to say is where's the party? Xo's Randy current mood: accomplished current music: patty griffin -- :) mmmmm (comment on this) Saturday, April 24th, 2004 -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- 3:13 am - meh Well you see what time it is (peeking at the clock) I've been on the phone with my ex-Natasha.
Sigh~ I think my wednesday horoscope was right. I have to choose, I wanted sex sooo bad I was almost happy she called because I knew she was an easy lay and yes, I've broke down it's been too long. I'm sooo horny (running off and hiding in a closet) anyhoo the point is we were on the phone most of the night. She spent a majority of that time masturbating and declaring her love for me. I actually fell asleep alot through out the conversation. It's definitely a case of too little waaayyyy too late. I was 19 when we were together I'll be 23 in a week.
I can't take a step back, I declared my love for her 5 years ago it's so pass over. On the one hand if I sleep with her I get what I want but then I gotta deal with the love thing in the morning. If I date her I'd only be doing it for sex because she really doesn't have anything to offer in a relationship. Sigh~x2 You can't have it all. I'm going to take the high road on this and be totally honest about how I feel. I suck so much why can't I be mean like everyone else. If anyone else would like to declare there love for me speak now or forever hold your peace. Xo's Randy current mood: aggravated current music: meh 
