  It's shitty... Anger is my defense mechanism right now. Because if I don't get angry I'm just going to cry. Forever. (if this is true anyway) And I can't cry any more. I did that for three months. Three long months. And you didn't care about it then. So I'm not going to do it now. I want the last month to not be a lie. That's all I want. I want the words, "I never want to see you hurt," to mean something. Because right now I'm hurt. You're suppose to care about that. You said you did... 
