  OK... I'm not sure I have the words to describe how it felt to get email from you. (i'm aware that "you" aren't reading... but it still feels good to purge my thoughts this way).
It's my own fault. I opened myself up to it. I sent email first... but I never expected to get a response. Especially not after so long. Why do you still say all the same things that make me feel something and hope for things that I cannot hope for and should not hope for. Sometimes I want to disappear. Maybe that'd be better for everyone involved. 
