  So, recap of today/tonight: 6 hour train ride Got into town right on time. You'd think that would be good, right? Considering I was worried I'd be late and my ride would have to wait, I thought it was wonderful.
Moving on to the next part of the night.... Wait for half an hour at dark train station. Call one of my staff members to see if he will call my ride (i don't have her number, and he's the only number i have memorized). He says he will. I wait 15 more minutes (7:45pm by then) and then call him back; there's no answer. Wait five more minutes, to make sure ride wasn't going to show up. Then proceed to walk 3 miles back to campus...
In the wind, freezing cold, and carrying two bags that weigh probably 40lbs all together. Get back to campus 45 minutes later. I'm exhausted, I'm so sore, and I'm sad. Tonight I need someone to wrap their arms around me and hold me and just care about me and take care of me. That's what I need right now, to just feel like I matter. Because after tonight, I truly feel like I don't. 
