  when the fuck did this have to do with drugs?  i mean,  i hate to bring it up again,  but i'm just in awe right now that this whole thing had to do with drugs and i never even knew drugs had anything to do with it?  really though,  how DO drugs have anything to do with it?  the last argument we had about drugs is when you said you were quitting and not to call you if we were just going to be smoking so then we didn't call you and you got angry and said you were just kidding when you said you wanted nothing to do with it.  what the fuck.  now i'm getting worked up because since then i don't think any part of this fucked up fucking argument has had anything to do with drugs.  i mean sure drugs were involved with the lindsey thing but i thought the main ordeal there was controlling people and putting people in charge of other people and the drug thing didn't really matter is was just a part on the instance and what the fuck i'm just going to stop because i'm getting really worked up about nothing and i'm not angry i just have no fucking clue where all of this "
blaming it on the drugs"  shit came up and why do you assume that i think i can only be happy when i'm on drugs?  what the fuck?  i RARELY fucking do anything anymore and i could care less i'm not like some fucking zombie that just walks around school thinking about drugs and wait for school to get out just so i can get back to my precious drugs.  what the fuck i mean sure,  drugs make me happy.  but that doesn't mean i fucking depend on them for happiness.  i'm sorry that my brain is fucking unbalanced and i'm usually depressed all the time to the point of constantly wishing i wasn't such a chicken shit and could just get it all over with and just pretending everything's okay for you kids and my mom and that drugs just make me happy when i'm having a bad fucking day but god damn it's not like i can't be happy unless i'm fucking stoned or speeding.
 I CAN BE A HAPPY CAMPER WITHOUT HOURLY JOURNEYS INTO THE WOODS FOR HERBAL EXCURSIONS.  god damn.  alright now i'm angry.
