  7/1995 what did i ever do to make you hate me? i did not ask to be born... you gave me life ON PURPOSE. some would say that its your JOB to love me  UNCONDITIONALL. that means no matter how many times i screw up, no matter how much i distance myself from you, your love will always be there for me. if thats how you feel, i dont see it reflected in your actions - they speak louder than words, although you dont say much either. its my life and i can do whatever i want to with it. that means whoever i want to be or become i can be.
because i have the right to make mistakes. how can i learn anything about life here, in this atmosphere? in accepting who you are and who you want to be and who others are, how can you not accept me too? but you havent. perhaps you do not realize that there is worse than me. i am not evil or a satan-worshiper. i am smart, well-educated, and have a purpose in life. can you not see this? i dont deal drugs or even do them.
ive never even tasted beer or any other alcohol. i am a virgin even. what is wrong with me? is it that my space is cluttered? because what is clutter to you is organized to me  it makes sense. do you think my priorities are all wrong? just because they are not the same as yours does not mean they are wrong. different goals require different priorities. i am not going to become you so our priorities must be different. if they were the same, it would be wrong. NOT understanding is the worst part. i ask myself why? my tears fall. 
