  right now my life sucks. I just went through one of the hardest things in my life this week,  i lost a really close family member and my fiends dont even have time to talk to me when I call them cause i need a pick me up. they are always busy or doing something with our other friends. and everytime I ask someone to go somewhere with me they come up with an excuse to say they can not make it or something like that,  the only person that will go with me is my mom,  but I dont want to go everywhere with her,  ya know.
I guess it is to much to ask that friends be there when you need them,  but I thought that is what friends do or are suppose to do,  even ones that dont live near you of for that matter in that same state. but maybe I'm asking to much. I guess thats my rant for today. laters 
