  Time After Time I've been telling myself that no on is gonna change him. I'm not going to waste my time waiting. I'm gonna find someone who will treat me right. Its time to move on. Because there are much more for me to see.
As hard as it is, I dont think I can maintain to let him go. Its hard to let go and it hurts forcing myself to stay away. But this is what I really have to do Right? I dont want to be an intruder in anybody's life. Being a third person isnt fun to play with. There would be excitments but its only an entrance to heartbreak and disappointments. I want to keep diving into him but I get nothing in return, I'm just fooling myself.
I dreamt about him again for the past two nights. Does this mean anything? Is this a sign for me to contact him? I'm afaird that if I do, all I get in return is a breakdown. Cant he just make me smile once more? Must this be the end of us now? I hope not!!! Cant it just be the end of one chapter and going on to the next? I dont want to run away but I cant take it. I'm so frustrated, my decision was made but I'm forcing myself to be this way.
Why should I push myself this way why? Maybe I've choosen the wrong path. Is it too late to turn back or should I leave it the way it is? I can give friends great advices but cant do the same for myself. Dammit. 
