  well.  folks.  there goes happiness.  im done with that bullshit.  lets just say that the only thing that could help me right now.  is a high near lethal dose of anti depressant.
 or a run.  but seeing as i can't get my hands on the first.  and after a fateful dive into the lake .  ( aka my knee is now fucked up.  i can't do either.
 what a great summer this is turning out to be.  and dammit.  i actually thought things were turning around.  how naive can i be.  well it just goes to show. its true.
why have dreams when they are only eventually shattered.  its only inevitable and its only my life.  and sometimes i wonder if its worth the trouble at all.  going to bed with a heavy heart,  sore knees,  and tired eyes.
 -  Nate 
