  It has come to my attention that people have about as much understanding of my inner workings as I have of their's. nbsp;  I feel that I must enlighten ( as much for my sake as for other peoples)  Subject: nbsp;
 Dylan's Crushes/ Likings of Members of the Opposite Gender Ok,  basically,  I have never dated,  I have never really flirted,  I have never really had someone that I have known about that would be willing to date/
flirt/ whatever with me. nbsp;  Because of this,  I guess I'm somewhat desperate. nbsp;
 Instead of allowing myself the opportunity to see women as merely people,  I'm constantly,  and I mean constantly,  aware of their actions ( especially those possibly related to someone liking me)  and the possibility of getting to be "
more than friends"  ( if sometimes it's only entertaining a wayward thought of the mind) nbsp;  This creates a world of mine in which everyone is a crush,  everyone is a possibility,
 and I have no monogamy ( right word?  I dunno,  but I think it gets my point across)  in my likings. nbsp;
 I could be feeling completely into one girl,  and then the next minute talk to another and think " Hey,  there might be something here" nbsp;  I dunno,
 I guess it makes me harder to read,  if I'm constantly acting as if I like everyone,  or at least multiple people at a time. nbsp;  I doubt this has really helped anyone,  but it helps to get it out.
 - Dylan Zehr P. S. nbsp;  I am trying to get over the thinking of people as possibilities,  though I'm not doing it very well.
nbsp;  I think that the best thing I could ever do right now would be to purely abandon the idea of dating,  of romance,  of anything,  and just worry about getting to know people. nbsp;
 We'll see how that works for me 
