  i just can't stop crying! god, i am so fucking unhappy. my dad isn't doing well, chris doesn't understand where i'm coming from, and NO ONE has any time for me anymore. i don't know what to do with myself. i feel so alone. it's taking every ounce of strength i have not to go out and get trashed right now. i swear, if i didn't love this baby so much.... i just want to die. someone please rescue me. please...... 
