  this week has sucked big time and im still not out of the woods with it all yet,  its making my go insane with how much shit i gotta do,  i got my french project today and its going to take me forever to do that,  we have to have all kinds of shit,
 way too much for me to handle.  i sent chad an email hopefully he'll reply i think hes avoiding me,  but then who wouldnt right?  sorry im just in a really bad mood right now its not even all about chad either,  im so so fucking stressed out its gotten me to the point where im crying i have too much to do in a very very small amount of time and its not fun to think about.  * sighs*  life really really sucks right now ive got way too much on my plate to deal with right now.
 maybe its a good idea to take advantage of mr luthringer's offer and go talk to him about things maybe ill feel a little bit better,  thats what he's there for so i guess it could do me some good to talk to him about everything,  i dont think ill tell him about chad though b/
c then he would call my mom i bet but i might still say something just i wont mention his age,  he is a lil old for me but if hes willing to go out with me im already his but thats all up to him i guess.  i hope i didnt do anything to fuck this one up,  i seem to be really good at it now adays,  i fuck everything up really o well i guess thats just me.  i read and saved some bolt poems today and that didnt help me at all with my mood so i guess ill just sleep the whole weekend and end up waking up and being brought to tears because i didnt get any of my shit done that i was supposed to.
 so i guess thats it for now wish me luck w/  life.
