  Talked to Kevin tonight. It was ok, probably would have been slightly easier in person--I seem to have a better time finding words then. Overall it was fine; hopefully that'll be that. I mean, it was ok for me, and hopefully I didn't completely ruin stuff by talking.
I know how much it irks him, but then again it'd irk me too. I just had to talk, and it was a good thing because it put my mind at ease. I now understand a lot more about myself. There was one part that helped me tremendously--it just put everything in perspective--just to be ourselves. People should be able to get along with one another because they are being themselves and like one another for who they are, not some modified version of themselves. Just be myself--it's fairly easy and straightforward. From now on things will be different. I'm done worrying about this.
I can do this (because I've obviously done it before! )--just be myself and not get bent out of shape about everything. Hopefully I didn't permanently ruin a friendship in the mess up to now. 
