  *bangs head on desk* I hate myself. That and the fact that Amber's going to Maumee Bay today and I can't because I'm babysitting. That and the fact that he has been on twice today and said nothing, AND YET IT STILL BOTHERS ME!!! What the hell is wrong with me? It's like I need to have control over people. I need to feel like people like me, even when it's him. Grrr. I wish mark or steven were on. Another day in the life of a shitty hypocrit. 
